... Let's not deny it. I cried... you cried, we all cried. Maybe me just a little bit more than anyone, lol. Hell, I cried when I wasn't supposed to be crying (the writing was really disjointed and way too melodramatic this series, it kind of made you want to sob for the show.) It's a little embarrassing, crying in front of your PC with family members looking on, but that's why we love Skins. Below are the scenes in Series 4 that had me tearing up to full-on bawling on first watch in the order that they aired:
01. 4X02 "EMILY" - "We were special!"
Naomi: I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!
Emily: You ruined it. You don't want anyone to care. I could be dead in a second... everything's so fragile, didn't you realize that? We were special!
Naomi: I was scared!
Emily: You're always scared.
Naomi: Emily! EMILY!!!
NAOMI AND EMILY YOU BREAK MY HEART. The acting in this scene was straight up phenomenal. I never thought for a moment that Emily was going to pull a 'Sophia' and jump off the building, but Naomi completely got it, how extremely delicate and messy and ugly love is, how it could push you 'over the edge,' how it pushed Sophia, and it's absolutely breaking her, to know that she pushed Emily to that dark place as well. Emily's little heartbroken, "We were special," guh, I was GONE. Then Naomi calling out to Emily hysterically at the end. She wanted to save a part of herself, for herself, but didn't know she'd lose Emily in the way she had gone about doing it. Love is the complete and absolute giving of yourself, and she was too scared to let Emily have all of her. This scene never fails to tear me up. Props to the girls for giving the scene what it needed to work. Lily was a hot mess, from being absolutely cold, to desperate, to guilty, to apologetic, then back to full on desperate, wanting Emily to understand why she'd done it, hoping that the sorries would be enough, realizing just how big of a mistake she'd made. And Kat, the heartbreak, the anger, and the sadness, and her withering delivery of, "You're always scared," tired of putting up with Naomi's crap and refusal to just fully commit to her feelings, all of it an echo of Emily's frustration in Series 3, only this time, she's really had enough. This scene is probably the top tearjerker of Series 4 for me.
02. 4X03 "COOK" - "Why does everybody get to piss on me?"
Duncan: Well, it's easy, innit? Blaming all your shit on everyone else. Well come on then. Why don't you tell me something that you have done, that you did, all by your shitty little self.
Cook: Last year... I stole my best friend's girlfriend, just because I could. And I fucked her mate, best mate, multiple times, just because I could.
Duncan: It's chicken feed, James.
Duncan: What is this Oprah? Tell me something fucking worthwhile! COME ON YOU DICK!
Cook: I just wanted to fucking crack someone.
Cook: He just- Freddie, man. I couldn't stand the way that she was fucking looking at him. And I was thinking, "Why does everybody get to piss on me?" Everybody always fucking pisses on me. My fucking mum- My dad is a fucking tosser and no one gives a shit. Everyone's just out for their fucking selves-
Duncan: Oh grow up-
Cook: No one gives a shit-
Duncan: SO FUCKING WHAT!?
Cook: SO I FUCKING SMASHED THE SHIT OUT OF THAT KID! I fucking kicked the shit out him and I fucking enjoyed it! I enjoyed, 'kay?
JACK O'CONNELL WAS UNBELIEVABLE IN THIS SCENE. The crying just came naturally, no awkward, constipated, scrunchy faces, he just started tearing up as he spoke, his voice gradually losing all of its bravado and just becoming raw. Jack wasn't Jack acting as Cook, he was Cook in that moment. And Cook the character just let it all out, just how jealous he is of Freddie, just how badly he wishes that it was him who Effy had feelings for, and how he's got two shitheads for parents, and does anyone ever give a shit about him? No one gives a shit that no gives a shit about him, so Cook just retaliates, decides this Shanky kid is the world and just makes him the target of his anger and frustration, decides to take something back from a life that just keeps taking and taking from him. Duncan doesn't let Cook get away with it, though. Duncan for a full three minutes becomes the HBIC of Skins, and just fucking cuts through Cook's self-pitying crap, makes him realize that his life maybe shit but his actions are his own and no amount of 'woe is me' is ever going to justify any of the fucked up shit he does. The actors had great chemistry! I wish we saw more of Duncan later on, he would've been a great father figure for Cook.
03. 4X04 "KATIE" - "I just want a mum who loves me, no matter what."
Katie: Mum. Mum, I can't have children. I went to the doctor's yesterday, and they said there's nothing they can do. I wanted to tell you, but... you were too busy shouting. It's all about you. I don't want to let you down, but you let me down. I really needed you, and you weren't there.
Jenna: My baby girl.
Katie: It doesn't matter mum. The house, and the money, I don't want it. I'm not going to be you. I just want a mum who loves me, no matter what.
Jenna: I do love you no matter what. I'm so sorry.
Katie: Yeah, well we love you mum. So appreciate us. Stop trying to push us away.
Finally Meg is given material that allows her to shine! The entire episode, Katie is just a fucking pillar. After finding out that she can't have babies, she just puts on a brave face as everyone's shit piles up all around her: their house being foreclosed on, working for a shit client, the fact that her family is homeless, the strong possibility of her parents divorcing, and getting a front row seat to the deterioration of Naomi and Emily's relationship. Throughout it all, she was there for her mum, her little brother, her dad, and her sister. She tried to reach out to Emily, then to her mum, but didn't get the support or the shoulder to cry on until the very end where she just breaks down and lets go of the HBIC-ness for a moment and allows herself to be weak. Katie's always been tough as nails, so seeing her vulnerable and in pain was beautiful and heartbreaking. Way to rock the scene, Meg... and make me reach for the box of tissues.
04. 4X05 "FREDDIE" - Freddie finds Effy in the bathroom.
Are words really needed? :'( When Freddie was trying his hardest to break down that bathroom door I did not know what to expect. The small pool of blood on the floor and Effy laying there motionless, legs all askew like a broken doll, made my heart ache. I got real teary-eyed when Freddie started crying and closed his hand over Effy's slit wrist and was yelling for somebody to help. Truth be told, I didn't think the episode was the greatest (felt a bit clichéd, and Effy seemed to unravel way too fast, in my opinion, I couldn't see the trigger) but Luke's acting sold me on this scene. It felt like he was reliving a nightmare and he really thought he could save Effy all by himself if he just tried hard enough.
05. 4x08 "EVERYONE" - "I'd die for you."
Naomi: I've loved you from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt, you know, loving a girl. But I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch just to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn't work. When we got together, it scared the shit out of me because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault. But really I was just terrified of pain. I screwed that girl Sophia to kind of spite you for having that hold on me. And I'm a total fucking coward because I got... these, these tickets to Goa for us three months ago. But I couldn't stand... I didn't want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can you understand? You were trying to punish me back, and it was horrible. It's so horrible, because... really, I'd die for you. I love you. I love you so much, it is killing me.
This scene was a little awkward, let's be honest. Not because of the acting or anything, but the fact that Naomi had to make a fight for Emily in front of everybody. But in the end, I think that made sense. I could totally imagine Naomi standing outside the door of the shed, anxiously debating whether or not she should pull Emily aside to talk, but I think the moment she went in she just thought it was now or never and rolled with it. Naomi was rambling and not making much sense but it was endearing, to her hear go on about just how much she loved Emily and how much it really did scare her, the depth of that love, and how she had to prove to herself that it wasn't consuming her or eating her whole. I think this was similar to how Effy told Freds that he drove her mad. In the end, love is supposed to be obsessive and crazy and a little bit unhealthy. Naomi's "I'd die for you," and how her voice broke, oh Lily you kill me! Normally, something like that would just scream cheese fest but I bought it, Naomi really would die for her lobster! And the at the end, the way Naomi was looking at Emily, patiently yet desperately, and then Emily smiled and then she smiled and then Emily hugged her, the kiss between them so hungry and also, so so happy, cause seriously when was the last time they kissed!? It was perfect. Bravo Kat and Lils!
06. 4X08 "EVERYONE" - Freddie's Impromptu Birthday Party.
Em. I'm probably the only one who got teary-eyed here. The thing I love about Skins is the amount of footage we get for every little scene. If you go back and go through episodes frame by frame, you discover little treasures like a smile you didn't see, or a character looking at someone for about a half-a-second with an expression that meant something. Watching this, the scene went by so fast. Everyone was just being so fucking cute and interacting with each other, showing us that they are actually friends. We got some Katie/Cook, Pandora/Effy, Thomas/JJ, Emily/Naomi, and just everyone getting pissed, probably dancing to more Kylie Minogue, and KAREN! Letting loose! The final shot with the picture of Freddie, JJ, and Cook as the three musketeers got a couple of tear drops from me. This scene was equivalent to generation 1's talk about school and grades around the fire after Chris's funeral. It was the last scene they would all be in together before they all went their separate ways and it was sad, because we didn't get enough scenes like this, everyone was just caught up in their little bubbles of drama, and FREDDIE WAS MISSING and he really didn't have to be.
There were other scenes that had me going as well, honorable mentions include Freddie running away from the hospital, and burning all of Effy’s shit including his picture with Cook coming around to comfort him, FREDDIE GETTING WHACKED (WTF SHOW), every time Emily cried (which seemed to be every episode, poor bb), but these scenes had me crying or being teary on second/subsequent viewings. Apologies on being a little verbose! LOL, I just love expounding on my Skins that much.